Book Review: Ink is Thicker than Water by Amy Spalding

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GoodReads Summary:

For Kellie Brooks, decease family has always been a tough word to define. Combine her hippie mom and tattooist stepdad, clinic her adopted overachieving sister, health her younger half brother, and her tough-love dad, and average Kellie’s the one stuck in the middle, overlooked and impermanent. When Kellie’s sister finally meets her birth mother and her best friend starts hanging with a cooler crowd, the feeling only grows stronger.


But then she reconnects with Oliver, the sweet and sensitive college guy she had a near hookup with last year. Oliver is intense and attractive, and she’s sure he’s totally out of her league. But as she discovers that maybe intensity isn’t always a good thing, it’s yet another relationship she feels is spiraling out of her control.

It’ll take a new role on the school newspaper and a new job at her mom’s tattoo shop for Kellie to realize that defining herself both outside and within her family is what can finally allow her to feel permanent, just like a tattoo.

My Review:

I’m just going to say one thing to start off: I absolutely love the way Amy Spalding writes her novels. Maybe because she has a similar voice to me and I’m completely biased and all of that fun stuff. But I do. I absolutely love the way she writes. She writes casual, she tells, she doesn’t show and this is how I write. I love that it feels like I’m reading a journal from my  best friend. Its wonderful.

That being said, this story was incredibly fun and awesome to read. Its a family story. I love family stories. I have five brothers and sisters and I love them all so I absolutely family stories. This definitely is that. While there is the love story between Kellie and Oliver, the story really centers on the family. I love that Amy really knew the dynamics of a family, no matter how the family is broken down. I think that’s beautiful. So much of the story felt so incredibly familiar to me. While I have never had a sibling that was adopted or found their birth mother, I definitely have had siblings pull away, discover their own path, that sort of thing, so I felt so close to Kellie. When Sara starts to pull away, and feel close to her birth mother, and Kellie starts to miss her…that hurt my heart. It felt so incredibly familiar to me.

I also felt so close to Kellie because of her differences between herself and her siblings. As much as your parents tell you again and again and again, that they love you equally, sometimes it doesn’t feel like that. It feels like a parent approves of one child more than the other. That’s the way Kellie feels with Sara and her father. Its the way I felt when I was younger and my brother got all of the attention. He was the sports star, and sports have always been SO huge in my family, and I was the geeky girl, with very little friends and my nose stuck in a book, and my fingers on the keyboard as I wrote. My brother was always the star, even though he is younger, and when he moved out and my whole family went into a frenzy, it was rough for awhile, so this part of the story felt so familiar to me.

Lastly, without spoiling the book, because I work so hard to not do that, I felt a connection with the relationship between Kellie and Oliver because it felt so real. I feel like so many relationships in books tend to be glamorized and that sort of thing but this one felt real, every bit of it and I think that’s why I enjoyed reading about it so much. It felt like a relationship that any one of us could have, and so it felt familiar and relatable and you sort of enjoy going on those roller coaster of emotions with Kellie.

In conclusion (I feel like I’m writing a really bad high school essay now…), I really love this book. I love the way Amy writes, I love that I feel like I’m curled up in bed, reading a note from my best friend and I love that she has a really good way of capturing emotions and feelings. She captures friendship and family and love so well and it all felt incredibly familiar which made for a very quick and a very fun read.

Rating:

4 out of 5 Stars

Happy Nerdsgiving…I Mean, Thanksgiving!

Happy Nerd Thanksgiving!

Now for those of you living here in the United States, viagra order I’m sure you know what this holiday is all about. I’m sure you dressed up in the paper costumes of Pilgrims and Indians back in first grade and you know, this you know, see just get to the turkey and the Black Friday sales already.

For those of you who don’t know what its about it, its basically this: The Pilgrims came to America to settle in the New World. Thanksgiving marks the first dinner, and meal that the Pilgrims and Indians shared together. Its all about the peaceful bond between the two and how they came together to enjoy this meal and all that fun stuff.

Those of who know better, know that we slaughtered the NATIVE AMERICANS in the thousands and gave them blankets laced with small pox and drove them from their homes.

But I digress.

But whatever the background of the actual holiday, it reminds to be thankful for the things that we have. I always tell myself, I need to be thankful every day, not just on a day like Thanksgiving. It’s like Valentine’s Day. You don’t need one day a year to remind yourself of the people you love. And yet, its a day to celebrate an American holiday, to spend time with your family and remind yourself that you are lucky, no matter what. There are always things to be thankful for.

So today, I’m making my little list of things that I am thankful for.

10. My Blog 

I started this blog back in May, and I can honestly say that this has made me extremely happy. Even when I’m having a bad day, or even if I am having the worst writer’s block, this blog is here. Here, I don’t have to worry about impressing anybody. I mean, its cool if I do but it’s mostly here for me to have nerd rants. Its for me to go on nerd tangents and if people want to follow me on this crazy tangents, that’s all good too. Its fun to be able to write about the things I love the most in the world. And I’m grateful for having it. And I’m grateful that I do have followers and that they like what I write :D

9. Movies

I adore movies and I am thankful for being able to watch them pretty much whenever I want to. I have a PS3 and a budding movie collection. I have a Netflix account and a Hulu Plus account and a television set to watch movies on TV. That is more than a lot of other people have and I’m grateful for it. There are so many badass and awesome movies out there and I am so happy that I get to enjoy all of these movies. Movies are amazing and I am thankful to have the ability to view them.

8. Los Angeles Dumbledore’s Army

One of the best things to ever come into my life. I discovered them a year ago, in October of 2011, and I am so excited to have them in my life. Not only do I have a ton of fun every single time that we have a meet-up but I also have met the most awesome group of friends ever. If you’ve never had a chance to read my post about this amazing, amazing group, you can read it here.

7. My Home

My home isn’t perfect. There isn’t a home in the world that is perfect. Home is about who is with you. But I am grateful for being able to have a home, with my family, and a second home, with my boyfriend and his family. I am grateful to have a bed to sleep in and a roof over my head. I am grateful for having a bathroom in order to do my business and take showers. I’m grateful for the refrigerator and stove in order to be able to eat food. I grateful for this small building where I feel safe.

6. Harry Potter

What would I have ever done without Harry Potter in my life? I am grateful for this book series and for J.K. Rowling for giving and teaching me so much. I literally do not think I would be the person I am today without it. No way. I don’t have four HP tattoos for nothing; it means so much to me and I am thankful every day for it existing and for being able to experience the magic and the adventure any time I want.

5. Writing

I am grateful, thankful, appreciative and lucky for the ability to write. Sometimes I don’t think I am a great writer and other days, I can’t imagine what I would do if I couldn’t write. It’s the only thing I’ve ever felt like I was good at. So I am thankful for a talent that I love and that will hopefully get me far in life.

4. Books

How could I ever live without books? What would I do without them? I couldn’t live if I couldn’t read. Books provide so much for me. They provide entertainment and they provide comfort and they provide lessons and they provide the best therapy that money can buy. Every time I am swept into the world that a book creates, I can’t even handle it. There is nothing like the feeling a book gives you.

3. My Friends

I have some of the most awesome friends in the world. I am not always the most fantastic friend in the world. I’m busy and I’m shy and sometimes I just want to sit at home and do nothing. Sometimes I’m just selfish. I’m not perfect. But no matter what happens, they love me and they support me and they are there for me no matter what.

2. My Boyfriend

I am lucky enough to have been dating my boyfriend for nearly five years. Jon is the best boyfriend, not perfect, but perfect for me. He has taught me so much about what it is like to be in a real, long, loving relationship. He’s seen at my worst and at my best and he loves me. He supports me no matter what, through thick and thin, he makes me laugh, he’s smart as hell, he takes my NERDtastic awesomeness with ease and he’s just so freakin fantastic. I couldn’t ask for a better boyfriend.

1. My Family

Every time I spend a day with my family, or even just hang out with them for a couple hours, I remember how damn awesome they are. They drive me absolutely insane but I love them so much. I have the coolest siblings in the world. We’ve been there for each other through thick and thin, through bad (and it’s been bad) and through good (but good too!) and they just all rock. They all take after their nerd sister a little bit: a love of anime here, a love of video games there, and so on. And I have a fantastic dad, seriously, he is a rock star. What would I do without these crazy, amazing people in my life?

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope that you can enjoy your turkey and pudding and your stuff and pie and even if you’re not American, I hope you can also remember that there is so much in your life to be grateful for :)

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And Then I Got Another Tattoo…

Yes. Oh, buy yes. I went there guys. I definitely went there.

I got my sixth nerd tattoo. I so went there. I have 4 Harry Potter tattoos (one of them is half HP and half Something Corporate) and a Star Wars tattoo.

And today, see I got my sixth tattoo.

I got my Mortal Instruments tattoo today. I got my Shadowhunter rune, order Fearless.

Thats me! With my new tattoo!

And there is a close up.

I am insanely happy with it. I had an appointment today to get my tattoo and it worked out perfectly, because I was having a terrible day. This cheered me up immensely. It looks freakin fantastic, didn’t hurt at all and was fairly reasonable priced. If you live in Southern California, I truly recommend Bob at Above All Tattoo in Fullerton. Amazing job and a super cool guy.

Some of you might be wondering, what the hell is that anyway? So you all know how obsessed I am with Cassandra Clare and her Mortal Instruments/Infernal Devices series. The series focuses on a group of warriors called Shadowhunters. They are humans, with angel blood, who fight demons and keep the peace between warlocks, fae, werewolves and vampires.

Now they use a variety of weapons to accomplish it: daggers, seraph blades, whips, bow and arrows, etc. But they also have these object called a stele: a wand like object that draws both permanent and temporary Runes…black tattoos that give Shadowhunters various “powers”…they can give them strength or stealth or silence or they can open things, etc.

I chose the Fearless rune to tattoo on my body. The superficial reason is that its one of the best looking ones.

But the real reason I got this tattoo (besides my LOVE for this author and her series) was that I would love to be fearless.

Two of my tattoos, my Harry Potter tattoos, have to do with death: Deathly Hallows symbol and “The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death”. I did these because I’m terrifed of death and I want to be unafraid of it, the way Harry and his parents were. They greeted death, they didn’t try to cheat death, like Voldemort and I think that’s something that’s extremely admirable. Death scares me more than anything.

But I’m also scared of so much else. I’m scared of my future, I’m scared of bugs, I’m scared of heights, I’m scared meeting new people and I’m scared of the dark. I’m kind of an anxious and scared person. And I don’t want to be that kind of person. Over the last year, I’ve definitely tried to change that. I’m trying to overcome my fears and become a better person. i don’t want my fears to hold me back from experiencing and loving life.

So that is why I chose the Fearless rune tattoo. I want it to be a sort of reminder that fear is temporary and that you can overcome it. I can never be completely fearless…but I can begin to overcome these fears, and tackle them and handle them. And the Fearless rune, while temporary for Jace and Alec in the books, gives both of them the courage to overcome their fears. Alec eventually realizes that he can come out as gay and he can be honest about his relationship with Magnus. Jace can overcome his fear of showing love for others, not only just his romantic love for Clary, but also his family love for the Lightwoods. And it gives me the courage to overcome my own fears.

And damn it looks so badass!

If you haven’t had a chance to see my tattoos or some of my friends’ awesome nerd tattoos, check out this blog post here.

And feel free to share your nerd ink with me. I’m always down to do another post about some epic nerd ink!

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Top Twelve Fictional Places (Oh Why Can’t They Exist?!)

Some of the best things about all these fandoms I’m obsessed with are the awesome worlds that come along with them. I think that’s partly what makes some of these fandoms so damn awesome: the fact that they’re taking place in some mystical, fictional place where amazing things happen. There are so many fictional worlds out there that I wish really existed and there are definitely places that I wish existed. So, of course, I created a list. I had to. I love lists :D and what a better list than one describing all of my favorite fictional places!

WhataNerdGirlSays’ Top 12 Fictional Places 

12. Pokemon World (Kanto, Johto, Etc). 

Pokemon Blue, Yellow and Red are my favorite video games of all time. They were really the first video games that I got into. I adored the show, I collected the cards, I played the game. Of course I did. To this day, I still love watching the show and playing the game (not so much the cards, I just never could understand it haha). I love the world of Kanto. For one thing, you’re ten years old and you’re ready to leave home and go on an awesome adventure. I don’t think I was old enough to walk home from school when I was ten years old! Then there’s all the awesome people, the pokemon, the training, the cool places to go, the battles, and so on. I wish this place was real! I could totally train pokemon! That or I’d just catch them all and stare at them all day because they’re so damn cute.

11. The Kingdom in Howl’s Moving Castle

“In the land of Ingary where such things as seven-league boots and cloaks of invisibility really exist…”

This mostly comes from Hayao Miyazaki and the Studio Ghibli team. They do an amazing job in all of their movies; their animation is stunning and the artwork is beautiful. This is what makes me want to live in Howl and Sophie’s world, known as Ingary in the books. I don’t know that they ever call it by anything in the movies but its called Ingary in the books. Yeah, the kingdoms are a little screwed up in their pointless war, but once that’s all done, I feel like it’d be an awesome place to live. The city where the palace is located is bustling and busy and so fantastically metropolitan. Then there’s the beach front town where Howl’s other shop is located where there’s the vast ocean and street market. Plus there’s magic and fancy clothes and it’d be so fun to do all of that. Oh yeah, and I want a fire demon named Calcifer, voiced by Billy Crystal.

10. Hundred Acre Wood

“Wherever they go, and whatever happens to them on the way, in that enchanted place on the top of the forest, a little boy and his Bear will always be playing.”

 I have a completely unhealthy obsession with Winnie the Pooh for a fangirl of twenty-four. I ADORE Winnie the Pooh. I love the old A.A. Milne stories and I can’t get enough of the Disney adaptations. I will sit on that ride over and over again at DisneyLand and you can catch me singing various songs from the movies at any point in time. Is it no wonder that I think it would absolutely and totally brilliant to live in the Hundred Acre Wood. When I think of the Hundred Acre Wood, I think of childhood. It represents childhood so much; think of the last original Disney movie where Christopher Robin leaves the forest to grow up and go to school. And who doesn’t want to revisit their childhood when it involves adventures with a silly ‘ol bear and a nervous little piglet and a gloomy donkey and a bouncy tigger? I know this girl does.

8. Rivendell/the Shire

“Do you remember the Shire, Mr. Frodo? It’ll be spring soon. And the orchards will be in blossom. And the birds will be nesting in the hazel thicket. And they’ll be sowing the summer barley in the lower fields… and eating the first of the strawberries with cream. Do you remember the taste of strawberries?”

I’d like to say that I would love to just live in Middle Earth, but besides Rivendell and the Shire, Middle Earth kind of scares me, even after its saved. It’s so vast and unknown and there are so many creatures of unknown out there and it seems so dangerous. I like to stick close to home. Hobbits don’t stray to far from home, and some people may not like that much, but I don’t think there’s much harm in that. Of course, I want adventures and fun, but in the end, I love coming home. And the Shire is a quaint little countryside home that is perfect for those Hobbits. Besides, I would fit in sooooo well with Hobbits. And there’s Rivendell, where the lure is just the beauty and mysteriousness of it. Elves are such a mystery, even after all the encounters you have with them. They’re gorgeous (hello, Orlando Bloom in a wig. Hubba hubba). There is something very magical about Rivendell.

8. The Burrow

 

“It’s not much, but its home.”

I am part of a big family. I so know what its like to be a Weasley. There are seven kids in the Weasley family and there are six in my family. I think this is partly why Ron is one of my favorite characters; I can totally relate on the whole big family thing. That being said, the Burrow just sounds like everything I could’ve ever wanted in a home. It has the family together in once place, being a family together. It doesn’t have a forced feeling. It’s a real home, with messes in the rooms and the gardens, and homemade blankets and sweaters all over the place and a homemade dinner every night. Even though the Weasleys are poor, they have the Burrow and the Burrow is their home. It feels like a home. Its where their family gathers to be TOGETHER. Its where Harry gets his real, first experience on what its like to have a home and a family. And that fact that it’s a hodgepodge of rooms and additions makes it that much better. Like everything else Weasley, it’s a little crooked, a little out of place, but perfect in every way.

7. Narnia

“I have come home at last! This is my real country! I belong here. This is the land I have been looking for all my life, though I never knew it till now…Come further up, come further in!”

Now I’ve probably said it about a million times already, but I mean MOVIE Narnia, not book Narnia. My quote is from the books, and don’t get me wrong, I do like the books but well that’s a whole ‘nother blog post. I like the idea of Narnia, as this secret place that the Pevensies escape to and its where they belong and where they are able to become themselves. If the Hundred Acre Wood was childhood, Narnia is that middle ground, where a child becomes an adult. All the sons of Adam and daughters of Eve that pass into Narnia give to Narnia…but Narnia gives them just as much back. I like the idea of being able to find a secret, magical land in the back of a wardrobe where I’m going to have adventures and learn more about myself and the world.

6. Tortall

 

“Does anyone in this land act like they’re supposed to?”

The quote itself explains it. Tortall is a land of its own, where things happen that seem so out of the ordinary. The King’s Champion is a woman, one of the most powerful mages in all the world is a woman, there’s woman fighting, there’s schools for the lower classes, there’s so much. Tortall has everything a fangirl could need with knights and mages and fantastic creatures and all of that, but it’s so revolutionary at the same time. It shows equality and tolerance. It promotes the idea of educating your population, all of it. It has a king and queen, who get to know their people, who act like normal people. Girls are amazing in Tortall; they’re clever and ambitious and powerful, just as they are in the real world. I would live in Tortall, easily. I could become a female knight or a mage (if I had the Gift) or a scholar or a Queen’s Riders or join the King’s Own. Tortall represents a sort of crazy wishful world, an example of what we should be. It’s not perfect but its near enough and King Jonathan and Queen Thayet work their butts off to make it so.

5. Time and Space in The Tardis

 

“Think you’ve seen it all? Think again. Outside those doors, we might see anything. We could find new worlds, terrifying monsters, impossible things. And if you come with me… nothing will ever be the same again!”

The Doctor has a way of pulling you, making you want to go with him, even though its dangerous. And it IS dangerous. The Doctor gets himself into crazy, insane, dangerous situations where your life, his life, a species life, the universe is at stake. And yet, you see amazing things as well. There’s a reason that his companions are so enamored with him; there’s a reason they’re so attached and they find it nearly impossible to leave. The Doctor gives you the entire universe, a life that is amazing and unique and different every single time. You literally have the entire universe in the palm of your hand. Anywhere in time and space.You can go anywhere you’d want to go. I couldn’t even begin to make a list of the places I wished to see. I wish that the Doctor’s world existed. I wish he existed and he’d take me along with him.

4. Camp Half-Blood

“Keeping Young Heroes Safe from Harm (Mostly) For Over Three Millennia”

I’ve been absolutely obsessed with Greek mythology for a good chunk of my life. It’s fun and it’s interesting. It was the religion of these people; these tales were what they used to explain everything, whether it was to do with the body, or the nature or anything. I remember wanting to name my cat “Artemis” once and everyone made fun of me. It took me awhile before reading the Percy Jackson series because I thought of it as a little kids’ series. Mistake one. Harry Potter is a kids series and I ADORE it. And I adore Percy as well. How cool to be a demigod, with a god or goddess as a parent (though in the book, they all seem pissed at their parents) and to have cool powers and save the world. Camp Half-Blood sounds so COOL. I wish I could live there. Its like all my obsession with Greek mythology come to life! Obviously I couldn’t be a daughter of Artemis, even though she was always my favorite, but I’d imagine being a daughter of Athena. Athena seems like a good Ravenclaw counterpart.

3. The Galaxy

“For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. You must feel the Force around you; here, between you, me, the tree, the rock, everywhere, yes”

I want to be a Jedi. I want to live in the Star Wars universe. I want a lightsaber and a blaster. I want to be Princess Leia. I want to rip Han Solo’s clothes off. I want to fly an X-wing or the Millenium Falcon. I want to race pod-racers. I want to save the galaxy. I want to live by the Force and battle the Dark side. I want to be part of the Rebel Alliance. George Lucas created a wonderful, vast, epic world and who wouldn’t want to be a part of it? The fact that the first movie came out in 1977, over thirty years ago, and still enjoys a crazy popularity just shows how captivating this world is. It has those classic elements of a typical fantasy, with the princess and the “knight in shining armor” with the swords (lightsabers) and the evil empire taking over. It has a magical component, it has the wide old man and the loyal retainers. And yet it is set in this badass science fiction world. Its the best of both.

2. Idris 

“To a Shadowhunter, Idris is always home.” 

Shadowhunters are humans who have angel blood and spend their lives fighting demons, and keeping the earth safe from demons. There are Shadowhunters stationed all across the world to keep it safe but their home is the country of Idris, and its capital city, the glass city, Alicante. It is described in the books as the sort of Jerusalem for Shadowhunters. I want to be part of this world and live in Alicante because I want to be a Shadowhunter and marry Jace Lightwood. I’m half-way kidding with that.There’s something intriguing about a glass city where the world’s most powerful warriors and protectors live.

1. Hogwarts

“Whether you come back by page or by the big screen, Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home.”

“Hogwarts was the first and best home he had known. He and Voldemort and Snape, the abandoned boys, had all found home here. ” 

How much do I really have to explain about this? Hogwarts is my home just as much as it was to Harry and Snape and Tom Riddle. It was the first time I ever felt like I was a part of something. I learned the meaning of good and evil, right and wrong, the meaning of friendship, of love, of bravery, of tolerance, of courage, of happiness and sadness, of gain and loss. I get teared up just thinking about it, just reading those quotes by Queen Rowling. There is nothing in this world that has touched me or changed me like these books have. How could I not want to go to Hogwarts? Its enchanting, and mysterious, and fun and wonderful. It’s every good word that is out there. There is no fictional place in the world of movies and books that I wish was real like Hogwarts. Its real for us. It will always be real for us. Always.

So that’s my list of favorite fictional places. I’m sure there’s about a hundred more that you all are thinking of so share them in the comments! You know I always love hearing from you :D

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Making Changes, Making Moves

Now, pharmacy most of my blog posts are strictly nerd or fandom related, and usually I spend a good 500-1000 words being silly and crazy and talking about awesome fandom stuff.

Today’s blog post is going to be a little different, a little more personal and a lot more me.

 DON’T LEAVE! Hear me out:

I know it’s not nerd, but if you follow this blog, I hope that you have at least some attachment to me, whatanerdgirlsays. So i hope that you can hear me out and enjoy this post, even if its not what I usually write.

In the past few months, I’ve been dealing with a lot…most of it stress. I’ve been in a job that I absolutely hated, I was working 40 or more hours a week, I wasn’t seeing my friends or my family or my boyfriend, I had no time to write or read, my grades were falling and I was gaining weight like crazy. I was downright miserable.

But, I don’t know, one day, I just woke up and decided, enough was enough. I’m only twenty-four years old and now is the time to live life.

So, first, I started this blog. And I can’t even begin to tell you how incredibly happy this blog makes me. It makes me happier than I’ve been in awhile. I love writing it, I LOVE hearing feedback from you guys. I’m seriously starting to think of creating whatanerdgirlsays stickers or buttons or bracelets or something because I am so insanely attached to this blog. Its something that I’ve seriously enjoyed doing because it’s so me. I love to write and I love all things nerd. So thank you for reading this blog and giving me a reason to keep writing it.

Secondly, after being miserable all summer, working an insane amount of hours and not being able to actually enjoy my summer, I quit my job. That’s right, I quit. I realized that in a few years, when I finally graduate college, I’m going to be working a 40+ hour week for the rest of my life…and until then, I need to worry less about work and more about me. So I’m done and I quit. I do not currently have a job, but I am looking (if you have any suggestions, I’m all ears) and I’m looking for something with less hours, so that I can pay my bills (which aren’t a lot) and I can still enjoy my life.

Then I decided it was time to live out my dreams.

Okay, that probably sounded pretty corny. It’s so true though!

Instead of focusing all my time and energy on a job that I hated, I’m focusing on the things that I want to focus on.

Like spending more time with my family and my friends and my boyfriend.

Like putting way more focus on school! I know that the biggest thing that is going to help me in life, with becoming a teacher, and even with becoming a writer, is to finish school and to finish my education and work has been holding me back from that for far too long.

Like finally coming to terms with who I am and what I look like. I’m a nerd, and I’ve found myself an awesome group of nerd friends and I’ve got a good family and a great boyfriend. And even though there are days when I look in the mirror and am unhappy with what I see, I have more and more days where I’m accepting how I look and I’m happy that I’m the way I am.

And doing what I love most: writing. And I’m doing two things with my writing. One is this blog. I want more time to devote to this blog.

My second thing with my writing is to finish my second novel. I’ve been working on it for about a year and a half and honestly, I’ve been stuck for ages. I haven’t had the time to sit there and think about my main characters and where I want them to go and what I want them to do. I haven’t had the time to write. And I want to focus on writing more than anything because it is my dream job.

And I want to get my first novel published. Another Chance for Summer was started when I was 19 and finished when I was about 21 or 22. Its currently published through Kindle Direct Publishing, and I’ve mostly gotten good responses from it. Hey, you can’t please everyone!

And of course, I’ve sent out about a million manuscripts and letters to different publishers. And of course, I’ve got a million no’s.

Though that’s extremely discouraging and disappointing, I’m trying my super very best not to let it get me down. I know that Meg Cabot was rejected a million times, I know that J.K. Rowling (all hail the Queen!) was shot down before little ol Bloomsbury took it on. I know that even the best have gotten rejected at times.

So, I’m taking matters into my own hands. I’m not going to sit around any longer and just wait for things to happen and wait for my dreams to come true.

I’m going out there and getting things done! I’v decided that I’m going to self-publish Another Chance For Summer. And it’s not cheap. So I’m looking to save some money and I’m starting a Kickstarter for the project to get YOUR help in making this possible. My project isn’t up and running quite yet but once it is, I’ll post about it!

So I’m making changes in my life and I’m finally doing what I want to do rather than what is expected of me. And I’m trying to live my life the way I want to live it: with the people I love and doing the things that I love. I’m so proud of myself for coming to these realizations and for making the moves to make my life better and to make my dreams come true!

But I can’t take all the credit for that. I have to throw a shout-out to my friend Tony, who runs his own website, facebook page and video blog on his own life changes. He tried to get onto the show, The Biggest Loser, made it so far and so close and just didn’t quite make it. But instead of letting it get him down, he’s been losing weight on his own and making his own changes, like quitting his job and getting a job that fits his dreams. His video blog is super fun to watch it and the moves he’s been making and the life that he’s urging himself to live is a serious inspiration to me and it shows me that you CAN do it, even when you think you can’t.

So I’m sorry for the super long post and I hope that you enjoyed getting to know me a bit more. I’ll have more information on my Kickstarter project to get Another Chance for Summer published in a few days, I hope, and, of course, I’ll share it will all of you lovely people. Thanks, as always, for reading and I LOVE LOVE LOVE hearing back from you!

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Oh one last thing: DOCTOR WHO RETURNS SEPTEMBER FIRST ON BBC AND BBCAMERICA! OHMYROWLING SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!